A Poem a Day

Keeps the heartache at bay

Tag: god

  • Wonder

    You ever stop to wonder what it is you’re praying to?

    If God is actually a little elf in the sky, collecting prayers like post it notes, selecting the ones to answer by throwing darts while blindfolded and hope that it’s nothing they promised not to do, like curing world hunger…

    I do, all the time.

    I wonder and imagine and try my hardest to paint the plain of God’s face with my fingertips

    And get nothing.

    Nothing but a dark sky with a gathering of stars for a face.

    Do you think that’s omnipotence? Or laziness

    Because if we really were made in their image, what if God just really doesn’t fucking feel like it?

    If they bob and weave and dodge those prayers because answering them just takes too much energy.

    They created us and suddenly, we’re too much.

    Those prayers have to be going somewhere.

    Because I refuse to believe that we are really this lonely.

    That there is nothing, and no one higher in power than this blemish of humanity in a timeline we created.

    Do you think they just vanish? Eroding like pennies at the bottom of a wishing well.

    How far do you think prayers travel? Are they shot like arrows, bending the breeze to catch their target unaware? Falling back slowly as they meet resistance.

    Maybe only some prayers make it to God, or maybe they die in the sky, suffocated by the atmosphere, set aflame and snuffed out all at once, never having reached their intended destination.

    Is there anyone actually listening? Do they find our suffering funny? I can almost hear a teenage group of deities, giggling.

    But they got to go somewhere right? Like whispers on the wind.

  • Demons

    Demons

    Have you convened with demons? Allowed the taint in your soul to infiltrate the dark corners of your sacred spaces.

    Have you been lulled to sleep by creatures of your imagination? Or stayed awake, entertaining false conversations.

    To be consumed by memories, because it serves you none to regret. But you can quite live right if the horrid scenes of mistakes made yesterday play behind closed eyelids.

    And the worst part, your eyes were wide open, and you shut them trying to shut out the mixture of disgust, and fear, but closing your eyes don’t make bad things disappear.

    But it wasn’t bad, was it? Just stupid, and with time, revolting.

    Mistakes plague you like that.

    They secure themselves onto your brain with claws made of photos, burned, seared, ingrained into your temporal lobes, forcing your amygdala into frenzy.

    And the sweet relief of sleep evades you.

    You’re stuck. In a purgatory of sorts, where you silently rage in dark spaces, silently cower and recoil from your insides, desperately try to restrain the taint from overtaking your mind,

    But its late. Too late, dawn has broken through. Another night wasted in fright,

    When child, will you learn to fight? Or have you surrendered?

    Have you given in to the monsters bashing against your human brain? Are the horrors of reality causing you to slip away?

    Is your vision that of tangled roadways? And what shall you have me do if it is how you say?

    Would you have me battle against the choices you’ve made? You ask me to be your champion, then hear me like you fear the roars of your demons! Release my binds, heed my calls, free me of this cage

    Only then will the body stop being afraid. Only then will we be united again.

    I know the past has gotten the best of you; I wasn’t prepared to face the darkness then.

    But after years of you silencing me, after years of living without me, I hope to be ready to face the light.

    Have you not wondered about me? Or have the shadows dulled your senses so much that you just can’t hear my pleas, my plight.

    It’s not a fight I’m asking for, all I ask body, is that you forgive yourself and mend.

    I can’t promise that the nightmares will end, or that sleep will come easy,

    But slowly, you’ll allow me back in, as one, we can start to begin again.