The Weight of Memories

“I will have had to remember you, longer than I have known you.” C.C. Aurel

That notion alone makes me immeasurably sad.
Can you imagine the weight of having to carry you with me?
Knowing you once existed but no longer exist.
But that’s not true either, is it?
You exist in me, in my heart and in my memories
but that will never be enough for me.
I so long for the physicality of it all; for one last touch, not whispers of a scent that once was.
How is it possible that the years will trickle by, and I can only carry you with me in my mind.
I so long to have you back in my arms.
The space in my heart you occupy is now weighed down carrying the bits and pieces of a soul you left behind.
I hope you’re comfortable in your new confines
but oh how I long for you to be free again.
To be here again.